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BEFORE I LET GO

Marieke Nijkamp

Corey returns to Lost Creek, Alaska to learn more about the death of her best friend, Kyra. (Ages 14 to 17)

Ages 14+Source checked

Why this age? The novel centrally addresses suicide, bipolar disorder, grief, depression, bullying, and family conflict. Treatment is serious rather than graphic, but the emotional intensity and mature themes suit teens. This is guidance, not a safety guarantee; reading level and family context may differ.

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Recommended age14+

Strongest cautions

  • Death of a character5/5
  • Frightening scenes3/5
  • LGBTQIA characters3/5

Strongest positives

  • Positive messages5/5
  • Courage & resilience4/5
  • Diverse representation4/5

What’s in it?

Death of a character5/5
Why this rating?

The entire plot revolves around the suicide of the protagonist's best friend and its aftermath.

Graphic injury1/5
Why this rating?

Suicide and self-harm are central themes, described in narrative terms rather than graphic detail.

Strong language2/5
Why this rating?

Some mild language and intense emotional outbursts occur.

LGBTQIA characters3/5
Why this rating?

The story features a queer romance and centers on complex LGBTQIA identities.

Romance2/5
Why this rating?

Includes explorations of past feelings and deep, intense platonic bonds.

Frightening scenes3/5
Why this rating?

The tone is consistently tense, unsettling, and eerie due to the isolation and hidden secrets of the town.

Alcohol or drugs1/5
Why this rating?

Mention of general social settings; no substance abuse themes.

Violence2/5
Why this rating?

Includes intense bullying and the atmospheric threat of a hostile town environment.

What’s good in it?

Courage & resilience4/5
Why this rating?

The protagonist confronts painful memories, community denial, and difficult truths while seeking answers and advocating for others.

Creativity & curiosity2/5
Why this rating?

The mystery-solving process relies on persistence and investigation.

Diverse representation4/5
Why this rating?

The novel centers diverse young people, including queer characters and characters from varied cultural backgrounds, with attention to identity and belonging.

Educational value3/5
Why this rating?

Offers useful insight into bipolar disorder, suicide’s aftermath, grief, stigma, and community responses, but it is primarily a fictional story rather than an instructional book.

Kindness & empathy4/5
Why this rating?

Empathy, friendship, mutual care, and support during crisis are important themes, although the story also depicts painful neglect, hostility, and failures of compassion.

Positive messages5/5
Why this rating?

Strongly emphasizes listening, seeking help, reducing stigma, honoring truth, and taking responsibility for people in crisis; harmful silence and judgment are shown as damaging.

Good role models3/5
Why this rating?

Characters are complex and deeply human, acting realistically under extreme pressure.

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  1. What message do you think the story most wants you to remember?
  2. How did the story approach death or loss? What helped the characters cope?
  3. Which choice in BEFORE I LET GO would you have made differently, and why?
  4. Who changed the most in BEFORE I LET GO, and what caused that change?
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